I have been spending far too much time lately with medical doctors. Three appointments in three weeks, and all of them related to cancer (diagnosing it, removing it, and checking up on it).
The first two were about my skin cancer diagnosis. Yesterday's appointment was my 6 month Follicular Lymphoma check-up with my oncologist, Dr. H.
I'll get the important stuff out of the way -- everything continues to look fine.
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This was one of those check-ups that should have been fairly peaceful, but wasn't. At least not the lead up to the appointment. I'm just a lot more on edge these days than I usually am, which didn't make things easier. But I also offered to help a friend with something in the morning, and it took longer than expected, so I left home for the appointment a lot later than I would have liked. The drive in was a little stressful, because the roads are lined with snow banks, so everyone is driving a little more weirdly than usual. When I got to the hospital for my appointment, there was a fire truck blocking the garage entrance. (Didn't seem to be dealing with an emergency; just parked.)
I drove into the garage through a different entrance. This garage was built in the 1960's, and the ramp to get up to the higher floors is a large spiral, wide enough for one car, with concrete walls on the sides. So you're always looking around a corner, hoping there isn't anything coming at you. I've been in this garage dozens of times, and it just occurred to me how appropriate this is for a Cancer Center parking garage -- you never know what's coming at you and you hope there isn't anything coming your way.
The garage was almost full, and the few empty spaces had cars parked in them poorly so there wasn't enough room for me to get into one. I had to drive around for about 10 minutes before I could get a space.
I had to keep reminding myself that everyone is on edge in a Cancer Center parking garage. No one is thinking clearly. Everybody's brain is focused on other things.
That forced me to take a deep breath and calm myself down. But it's hard to be kind when you're focused on yourself and all of your own baggage.
My first stop was at the attendant's desk. Everyone who enters the hospital gets a visitor's badge. The desk attendant had a nice long conversation with the person in front of me. I tapped my foot impatiently. Then I remembered how nice it must have been for that person to be remembered by the desk attendant. Probably made her day. [Deep breaths. Find inner peace.] Things got better from there. I got out of my own head.
The next stop was the blood draw station. That went pretty easily. The phlebotomists at the Cancer Center are really very good -- the needle goes in smoothly and they rarely leave a bruise. And they're polite and friendly. It sounds funny, but it lightens the mood a little to get a good blood draw.
I got in to see Dr. H fairly quickly, too. The exam went fine, as it usually does. He asked some health-related questions, and some non-health questions. He knows my wife and I have travel plans, now that our kids are older. So I told him about our Rhine River cruise coming up for the spring. We talked about work, and the new stresses there. We talked about my kids and their various exciting happenings.
The physical exam was unremarkable. No swollen nodes. No obvious issues. He keeps offering to see me once a year instead of every 6 months, but I like seeing him more frequently, and he understands that. But he sees my name and his first reaction is to wonder if I'm having a problem and that's why I need to see him so often.
The blood work results weren't back from the lab yet, so we couldn't talk about them.
He was pleased that I am keeping up with various vaccinations (Covid, flu, shingles. Might be time for a pneumonia shot, but my immune system seems to be holding up, so he's not anxious about it.)
I asked what he was excited about in the world of lymphoma. He's still very excited about bispecifics, and he talked about some of the successful research that's been happening lately. I like to have a plan for treatment, in case I need it. Of course, he said, we'd do a biopsy and use that to help determine a treatment plan. But if I do need treatment again, and it isn't too aggressive, he'd want to start with Rituxan, since it worked so well for me the first time, and then consider a bispecific if we needed to. It's good to have a plan.
And that was it. A stressful ride home, but I had a few moments of peace, anyway. Funny that it came in a Cancer Center.
Hopefully, I won't have any more doctors' appointments to write about any time soon. I'm sure I'll find something else to share with you.
Stay well. May your own visits to the oncologist bring you peace, too.